Into the sea…
Go into the sea – why would that be on a bucket list? Let’s back up a bit.
Back in the day, I had a 40×40 list, a list of 40 things to do before I was 40.
Well, I turned 40 and upgraded the list.
One of the things on that new list? Finish the old list!
One of the things on that list? Go into the sea, up to my waist… bear with me, I can explain!
This one seems like such an easy one to achieve; I live about 20 miles from the coast (although to be fair calling the water at Weston Super Mare ‘the sea’ is being bit generous!)
And everyone loves splashing about at the beach. However, I have made two attempts at this task and knee-deep is as far as I have got.
In fact, you can watch me try at both Weston and Brean. I just don’t like being in tidal water; it is terrifying. I put this fear down to one event back in 1994.
Let me take you on a journey…
I was in Salou, Spain, with my friend Sarah and her family and we were having a day on the beach. We were jumping waves, having fun, when a freak wave took me out.
To be fair I was a pretty small target and weighed next to nothing (sigh, those were the days) so it didn’t particularly require a strong wave to take me out.
My problem came when I attempted to get up and out. An undercurrent was towing me out to sea and struggle as I might to get my head above the water, as soon as I lifted it to gasp for air, another wave would come and smack me in the face.
‘This is how I die’ I thought. ‘I am going to drown on holiday – My mum is going to kill me’. Luckily my friend Sarah was not only a good 8 inches taller than me but an excellent swimmer.
Realising my plight, she grabbed me and I was dragged to shore. The whole event probably lasted 25 seconds…the longest 25 seconds of my life! While I didn’t appreciate it at the time I was now scared of the sea.
We have nothing to fear but fear itself…and water
To be honest, I am not great around water, full stop. I have palpitations when I see small children stood near the edge of ponds and feeding the ducks has always been traumatic.
Before writing this I looked back over my two attempts to get in the sea over on my Vlog – I have a real problem!
If it isn’t all related to my Salou incident then I think I can work out why I am like this; I am not good at swimming and would not be able to save someone. When the kids were little, I used to have a nightmare about the pram rolling into a river and there being nothing I could do because if I jumped in, we would all be dead.
I need to become a better swimmer
Hmm, I started writing this post about one thing and it has morphed into another!
Through a process of bloggy self-analysis, we have discovered that I need to be more confident in the water.
When I go swimming – cannot remember the last time that happened – I currently need to be able to touch the bottom or the side of the pool. This is clearly a confidence issue due to my lack of skill (and possible PTSD following a near-death experience).
So moving forward… next summer (or earlier if a surprise visit to somewhere warm pops up!) we are going to the beach and going in the sea.
Before then, a visit or two to the local baths will hopefully get me in the zone.
‘Swim’ is actually on the Kettle List – just that, swim. As part of the EBI challenge, I did look into how I could quantify this task. 50 lengths? Swim in 50 different places? Gain a lifesaving qualification? Will have to have a think.
A July 2022 update
As part of my training for Tough Mudder 2022, Rin and I took up swimming. I have been adding up the miles, as I intend to use them towards my ‘swim’ task, in the sense that I am going to ‘virtually’ swim the channel.
This newfound water confidence meant that when I visited Barry Island with Rin and the family I was tempted to finally beat this challenge.
Not only did I get into the sea, I had a swim about. That’s me on the right… you’ll have to trust me!
Which, of course, means I can get the stamp out and finally declare this task…
My Mum is terrified of water! A similar thing happened to her when she was a child, except it was her dog that saved her. My Mum won’t even go in a swimming pool, so I think you’re doing really well. I’m trying to convince her to just paddle in the sea, but not got that far yet. I think it’s a pretty common phobia, I know a few people who feel the same way. Just take it nice and slow, and don’t push yourself and you’ll be in the sea in no time! xx
I am hoping to up my game and swim in it one day – now to convince my husband to take me to the Maldives or somewhere with nicer water than Weston-Super-Mare!
Haha, that’s what my Mum says! She’ll do it if it’s in a different country
I don’t mind the water my mum isn’t overly keen but she’ll get in. Don’t put that pressure on yourself. I know many people that won’t go near the water for fear of it. You’re doing great, baby steps a little a time xx
Thanks Rachel – I just don’t like the idea on an inanimate object having control over me…then I remember it is really animated and can potentially drown me! So baby steps for now like you said!
Definitely don’t put that pressure on yourself otherwise you’ll end up putting more fear in yourself over it and you don’t want to do that xx
Thanks Linda, I am feeling fairly encouraged now… Although will obviously have to wait until next year now😉
Polly at least you have tried, keep going, im sure you will be able to do it! I look forward to seeing a picture of you achieving your goal!
Next summer – definitely happening.
I really hope you will overcome your fear of water. But just go slowly, don’t push yourself and have someone to be there with you, so you will feel more secure.
Thanks for this… It is something I think I can do slowly, perhaps gain confidence in a pool – there are no waves there! – and from there.
I’ve always absolutely hated swimming and I’ve never been good at it, I had to learn when i was little as i said before, so i can do a mediocre backstroke and freestyle but thats about it. This post has kinda made me realise I do have a little fear of the ‘water’ and that maybe i should work on that….. Great post though and its really good that you’re trying to conquer your fear! Good luck xx
Next summer! We should get a blogger posse for moral support and get to a beach 🏖
Hahaha that sounds like a great idea! 😂
OMG this is me all over, I am petrified of water and cannot swim. I really hope you manage to conquer your fear!
Totally will – I am definitely off to the beach next summer!
You’re not the only one – I’m not a fan of the sea! You don’t know how low the bottom is lol 😂
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I know many people with a fear of water, so nothing to be ashamed or think is stupid. Everyone is afraid of something.